I'm you're typical girl. I cry at sad parts in a movie. I like dressing in a million different styles, & yes, on occasion, I show too much skin. I like every type of music, even if I won't admit to people that I do. Most people say that they have the uin the entire world, but I really do. I trust very few people, but try & like everyone. I tell everyone how much I hate school, but I appreciate my education. I eat junk food when I'm bored, hungry, or anytime in between. When I'm out with my friends, I go to the bathroom in those cliche groups, & talk about the boys I'm with. Somewhere in that group of boys is that one special guy. It's that boy, who every girl has. It's that boy who makes you shake & act like a dork. He makes you forget what you want to say, & make your words come out slurred. & even though he has your heart, you're not sure you want to change that.


im happy.
im really happy.



brother, i miss you.

As for being patient..

With fate & all .. it's getting old.



I mean REALLY.

I need to vent.

1. My ex boyfriend [out of nowhere] texted me last week to inform me that HE LOVES ME. LOVE? Are you joking? Because really .. I'm pretty sure that if you love someone you don't yell at them. You don't push them. You don't talk down to them. You listen to them. You let them be themselves around you. You don't try to change them. Don't even play that game with me. Don't tell me that you've changed and that I should be okay with you again. Because you know what? I'm NOT. But, I will never, ever talk down to you. I believe that everything happened for a reason. I'm thankful for our relationship. It taught me so much. I'm a much stronger girl now. I've been praying for you, non-stop. I want you to have the best life possible. I want you to be happy. I want you to know that there IS someone out there for you and it's just not me. Don't run after me. It's not worth your time or mine. Even though you hurt me, I want the best for you.

2. This boy, right? I swear he plays with my emotions. ITS DRIVING ME NUTS. I found this quote today -- and it kind of reminded me of my situation..

& i'm tired of being your second choice.
it gets really frustrating knowing that you
will always come back to me when she's
not there. Its like i'm second best. which
makes me realize i'm not worth your first
choice. so why should you be mine? do you
want to know why? its cause I care about
you more than any boy I ever had in my life.
when i'm upset. you have a way to make it better again.
& when you do, I fall for you. & I fall hard. I
fell for you 4 months ago, & i'm sorry to
say I haven't gotten up since. so what do you say?

Yepp. That's it. Idkkkkkkkkkkk I'm tired of boys.



3. My best friend came home from college this weekend. You know what he said? "Hey Kar .. we're gonna hang out Saturday, k?" BULLCRAP. I've been calling .. and calling .. and CALLING AND HE WONT ANSWER THE PHONE. Oh see if I come down to Wooster as often to see you. fkgeorhnehndofgerynhirgund f;gbldkfhjdyfoiu

4. I cleaned my room today .. and I was listening to the song "Back Home To You" .. and I got pretty emotional. I found a bunch of pictures from my friends who live far away (connecticut .. kentucky .. and well .. ireland) == and I FREAKING MISS EVERYONEEE.

hey. i love you brother. :]
youre my hero bubba! <3 

There's always that one person
That will always have your heart
You'll never see it coming
Cause you're blinded from the start
Know that you're that one for me
It's clear for everyone to see
Ooh baby, oh, you will always be my boo..

don't lie. you love usher.

I never wanna dwell on the pain again
There's no use in reliving how I hurt back then
Remembering too well the hell I felt when I was running out of faith
Every step I'm about to take moves towards a better day

Cuz I'm about to
Say farewell to every single lie
And all the fears I've held too long inside
Everytime I felt I couldn't try
All the negativity inside

For too long, I've been struggling, couldn't go on
But now I've found I'm feelin' strong and I'm moving on..

6 days til summer.

then just 1 year til were done .. and til i peace the heck out of this place.